I think a lot of my problem lately is that I have too much time to think, or maybe that I allow my mind to wander too much. I've been awfully weepy and have felt semi sad for about a month now. I can tell you the God honest truth as to why I've been feeling this way and I can tell you that every single girl probably feels the same way as I do.
I guess I have this undeniable feeling that I will be single forever. crazy people tell me, its crazy that I would feel like this, but its true, its this feeling I havent been able to shake.
I am not one of those people that have to be in a relationship to feel valid nor do I require a man to feel like a real woman.
But after the divorce, when youve been with someone for over 5 years, you become...comfortable, its what you know and you know that you dont have anything to worry about, you always know who your coming home to. But now, i fear that in this crazy road I call life, i fear that I will have to travel it alone, indefinetely.
I guess maybe I am looking way too far into this, maybe not. But as they say, I am not getting any younger and hope to eventually have a settled life with kids and my own home. The sands in the hour glass are running and its almost suffocating.
maybe I just need to vent these crazy thoughts and thats why im posting this blog and i apologize if there isnt a flow here, but i cant stop myself from typing this
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