Friday, February 12, 2010

Dear John...Dear Lord


(furiously stomping in)


OK OK OK, this is not going to be a pretty post and so don't say I didn't warn you.

Tonight all I wanted to see was a sappy love story that would make me really hate Valentines Day (which will be a post for Sunday) more than I already do because of all the heart felt mush loveness that would pour from it. WELL......

tonight I was let down, Dear John, which from all accounts of its previews presumed to be that and much more. But was I sadly mistaken. This movie is a single woman's nightmare come to life.

In this movie we have John, gorgeous military man of a man, who in a span of two weeks, falls head over heels for this girl.....Now here's the deal, John falls for her while on leave and hence has to go back to duty for the remainder 12months overseas. While away he promises to write her as often as he can and tell her everything and I mean everything. which he does without fault! this man lives to the word devoted! OK, so shitty situation happens (and by shitty i mean 9-11) and thus causes John to (in his duty bound honor to country) re-enlist for an additional 2 years abroad. which at first it would portray that ole girl is OK with and something she can handle


pause- alright ladies....first things first, if your going to get entangled with a military man, you damn well better be ready for anything and I mean anything. It is a lifestyle not for the faint of heart or weak minded. you better come with your A-game and your head right. It takes one damn strong woman to stand by her army man!! HOORAH


resume- However as it continues on you can obviously see she is going to break and without fail BOOM it happens, miss thang drops the granddaddy of all bombs on poor ole john and to add insult to injury she does it in a letter that she waits to 2months to write. So John hasn't heard from her in 2months, when she normally writes without fail, and the letter he does get is one that says "oh sorry um im engaged now and um....yea its over" WTF


pause- ok secondly, who the hell breaks up with someone in a letter, even if they are overseas. Geez people, lets grow some balls here and handle this like and adult shall we. You would have to be some kind of heartless BIOTCH (which in this case, she was) to do that to a guy...geez and rice


resume- At this point John is pretty much heartbroken and continues on in his new CAREER in the military, so what was once a temp situation in the military , she has now caused him to retreat into a life in the military.cold blood. in the midst of it all John gets shot, ends up in the hospital and then finds out his father is very sick and has to go home.

While visiting his father he has a heart to heart moment where he breaks down about ole girl to dear old dad right before his father dies.

After the funeral John pays girly a visit. which leads to dinner and leads to a parting scene, where tearfully she reminisces on old times and hopes that John will say he loves her back. (NOT SO MUCH GIRLY) John does no such thing, he leaves the house, drives away leaving her crying at the door.


pause- isnt it like a lil skallywag to sad now that she let a guy like John get away and hope some doe eyed tears would bring him back. UH HELLO, didnt you see the good thing you had when you had the chance??? not so much


Moral of the story girls- Know when you got it good and Keep it great! and to all you heifers who arent happy with your good men...pass em this way, us single ladies will gladly take them off your hands!

HelplessHopelesslyRecklessly

I can stand with the weight of the world On my shoulders
I can fight with the toughest of the tough
I can laugh in the face Of all my insecurities
Anytime, anywhere, anything
I'm strong enough

But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touchI'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklesslyFalling in love
So let consequence do what it will to us
I don't care
Let the stars stand as witness to it all
Say the word and tonight I will follow you anywhere
I just can't pretend anymore
I'm too sturdy to fall
But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touchI'm completely defenseles
Baby, it's almost too muchI'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

Saturday, February 6, 2010

And I wonder

I think a lot of my problem lately is that I have too much time to think, or maybe that I allow my mind to wander too much. I've been awfully weepy and have felt semi sad for about a month now. I can tell you the God honest truth as to why I've been feeling this way and I can tell you that every single girl probably feels the same way as I do.
I guess I have this undeniable feeling that I will be single forever. crazy people tell me, its crazy that I would feel like this, but its true, its this feeling I havent been able to shake.
I am not one of those people that have to be in a relationship to feel valid nor do I require a man to feel like a real woman.
But after the divorce, when youve been with someone for over 5 years, you become...comfortable, its what you know and you know that you dont have anything to worry about, you always know who your coming home to. But now, i fear that in this crazy road I call life, i fear that I will have to travel it alone, indefinetely.
I guess maybe I am looking way too far into this, maybe not. But as they say, I am not getting any younger and hope to eventually have a settled life with kids and my own home. The sands in the hour glass are running and its almost suffocating.
maybe I just need to vent these crazy thoughts and thats why im posting this blog and i apologize if there isnt a flow here, but i cant stop myself from typing this

Breaking at the Cracks

I think you took my heart away when you said you're leaving
'Cause right now I am hurting all over again
And I never thought that I'll be in this place, is this a mistake?
And now I don't know how much more that I can take

I'm breaking at the cracks and everything goes black
It's another heart attack and I can't handle that
Whoa, love I need you back

I know that I'll get through this, the feeling's stronger somehow
I got my feet back on the ground and I'm turning around
And I'll be everything you always said that I could be
If only you'll be waiting right here for me patiently

I'm breaking at the cracks and everything goes black
It's another heart attack and I can't handle that
Whoa, love I need you back

Oh, never would I take you back
My heart was filled with love
And I wipe these tears and I will laugh
If only I could make it last, make it last

Breaking at the cracks

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Its a Jungle out there!

OK OK OK, so I know some of you are salivating, and I mean salivating to know about my So called LOVE LIFE...lol (and i really have to laugh because its...laughable!).
Here's the update....
I have been in several dates and the general consensus is...SEX. WHY WHY OH WHY OH WHY is that every guy that you go on a date with assumes that because he bought you one Gosh diggly darn chicken basket you have to touch his...basket. Is there no bloody sense of propriety left in the world!? ok ok ok, i get it, what year do we live in...2010, i guess its the day in age, one date= booty call
le sigh, this endless trek in the world of plenty of fish is exhausting to say that least.

Making Sense


You know, I always say that I am going to start a blog, actually keep it up and maintain it, especially since I've always wanted to keep a journal but could never find a time to start one.

I guess I've always wanted to write a journal because I am one of those people that like to look back and figure out how I could have dont something different. Though we dont have a rewind button on our life, its kinda of a way to relive the moment.


I guess its my crazy way for making sense of this nutty life of mine!

Promise to Blog ill keep this thing up